Tantric Tuesday: The Serpent Path

What is Tantric Tuesday? An opportunity to put improvisation and exploration into practice via a once weekly energetic offering to nature. What is my intention?  To meditate, ponder, journal my shared movement experiences in nature. What is my hope? To raise consciousness through the practice and sharing of movement. To learn neutrality, to simply be, to open my heart, to awaken oneness. 

The serpent coils my negative space. I swim through winds. I see a rainbow grain amongst a labyrinth of sands, gravity bound pulling me down into millennia glass. I've been here before. I hear a call- an heart-monic tone of bliss, louder than the growl in my solar plexus. Bite by bite I navigate my wounds. My nightmares are not separate, Divine Mother calls. Cascading rebounds in my moves, unlock wisdom grooves. In the darkness of womb transformation is birthing, the serpent is stirring. I trust her energy- she is love- she is catalyst- she is me. The sting of her bite sets all wrongs, right.  She rises, Source calls, ALL is Love. 

Tantric Tuesday: The Substitute

What is Tantric Tuesday? An opportunity to put improvisation and exploration into practice via a once weekly energetic offering to nature. What is my intention?  To meditate, ponder, journal my shared movement experiences in nature. What is my hope? To raise consciousness through the practice and sharing of movement. To learn neutrality, to simply be, to open my heart, to awaken oneness. 

Today's Experience:

This Tantric Tuesday I reached new heights in meditation and connection with mother earth.  A true manifestation of co-creation, love and laughter.  None of it captured on video.  Unfortunately, the ocean swallowed my camera. The tide moved in swiftly and there goes the tripod.  A painful lesson of impermanence.  So this footage is a stand in.  Improvisation in the studio from Monday night. Monday, I experienced a flow of soft energy.  A practice in listening to resonation in space and in body, before shifting from one movement into the next movement.  Enjoy:)!

Tantric Tuesday: Twilight by the Bay

What is Tantric Tuesday? An opportunity to put improvisation and exploration into practice via a once weekly energetic offering to nature. What is my intention?  To meditate, ponder, journal my shared movement experiences in nature. What is my hope? To raise consciousness through the practice and sharing of movement. To learn neutrality, to simply be, to open my heart, to awaken oneness. 

Today's Experience:

As the sun said goodbye, a chill shifted through my bones.  I was determined to dance in the night.  The bay holds the reflection of a busy San Diego and all comes to sparkle when the sun goes down.  YOU can not SEE the depth of the jagged rocks beneath my feet or the precarious positions of my lower body.  Half of the experience remains unseen.  Meditative arms float and expansion occupies my blood.  The rocks below are supportive but cunning in their slant.  I balance, waiver and sometimes laugh.  I dance in the DARK.   

Tantric Tuesday: Rock Huggin Torrey Pines Beach

What is Tantric Tuesday? An opportunity to put improvisation and exploration into practice via a once weekly energetic offering to nature. What is my intention?  To meditate, ponder, journal my shared movement experiences in nature. What is my hope? To raise consciousness through the practice and sharing of movement. To learn neutrality, to simply be, to open my heart, to awaken oneness. 

Today's Experience:

Thanks to my awesomely supportive husband we have close-ups this time and he gave me the boost I needed to mount this rock!!! 

Hold onto me rock, don't let me go. How much space will you let me occupy before giving way? I can feel you crumbling beneath my bones.  A labyrinth! Where do I place my toes next? Show me, as I shift, push, pull, break, negotiate. Your sea minerals and desert clay fall and will again be washed away. Who knew it would be muddy in here? When was the last time the ocean kissed your cheek?  I become aware of your delicacy. This mass that is you, from distance intimidating and mighty, a barricade, but I'm at your mercy.  Just a tiny peek under here, please. My head and heart vulnerable to your weighted decay. Cling, Float, Embrace, I'm yours.

Tantric Tuesday: Los Penasquitos Trail

What is Tantric Tuesday? An opportunity to put improvisation and exploration into practice via a once weekly energetic offering to nature. What is my intention?  To meditate, ponder, journal my shared movement experiences in nature. What is my hope? To raise consciousness through the practice and sharing of movement. To learn neutrality, to simply be, to open my heart, to awaken oneness. 

Today's Experience

As I wandered throughout this trail, every corner I turned fostered enchantment and my anticipation to begin my dancing bubbled up inside of my heart. Then I realized the dance has already begun... Its the awakening, the energetic shift that draws forth, like tiny spirals of light, as I take each step and begin to leave the industrial behind...and welcome her in (mama earth). 

Then I saw her, this babbling brook with glowing amber leaves, intersecting pathways and blood red tree roots seeping into the water and over the rocks. A cocktail of beauty and grace garnished with wild growing cilantro. This the spot!  

This is the spot where I found my flow. The spot where I realized my torn meniscus is healing. This is the spot where I found a momentary connection to Pina Bausch. This is the spot where Cher's hit song "If I could turn back time" played in my head, beckoning playfulness and abandon.  This is the spot where I uncovered the happiness and freedom that I already AM.  

Tantric Tuesday: Birthday Dunes

What is Tantric Tuesday? An opportunity to put improvisation and exploration into practice via a once weekly energetic offering to nature. What is my intention?  To meditate, ponder, journal my shared movement experiences in nature. What is my hope? To raise consciousness through the practice and sharing of movement. To learn neutrality, to simply be, to open my heart, to awaken oneness. 

Today's Experience:

A gorgeous clear day in San Diego! I was in a very Butoh mood today so this is two hours of sand worship condensed into 5 minutes. I wanted to burrow myself into the cool moist parts of the sand dune- the sand un-kissed by the sun- the underground harmony that feeds the succulent known as "purple ice". This tantric experience held duality, balance of hot and cool, breeze and stillness. I wanted to know the journey of the purple ice reaching ever so patiently towards the ocean sprawling itself in perfect balance.  Delicious dreams have come my way lately, perhaps I'm bathing myself in more than just sand and sunlight today...

One year ago we celebrated a sunset here with bonfire and birthday wishes. Today I'm 31. Enjoy:)

Tantric Tuesday: Cactus Garden

What is Tantric Tuesday? An opportunity to put improvisation and exploration into practice via a once weekly energetic offering to nature. What is my intention?  To meditate, ponder, journal my shared movement experiences in nature. What is my hope? To raise consciousness through the practice and sharing of movement. To learn neutrality, to simply be, to open my heart, to awaken oneness. 

Today’s Experience:

Set in the cactus garden of Balboa Park in San Diego... I began my practice with Eyes shut and a rocking or settling sway into the body.  As you will see in the footage, my eyes remained closed until I actually fell to the ground. Surrounded by giant needling cactus... quite a confrontation, an exercise in trusting my other senses to guide (plus I’m nursing a torn meniscus). Soon the experience evolved into a game of listening to my boots crackling the gravel and honing in on the hum of the traffic below pouring into my ears, creating an inner rhythm.

Once I hit the ground, my eyes opened and the gray sky came into me as a transformation... as if I existed underneath a magnifying glass feeling simultaneously giant and tiny. A mere speck in the universe yet giant b/c "I AM". Then it Rained- Let me repeat because we live in San Diego- Then it Rained.

A giant flock of crows flew over my head from north to south; I smile because this was a genuine connection, a victory!  This past week, I awaken to a crow squawking outside my kitchen window. Lately, I've been trying to remember the details of my dreams and its always as if the crow is making sure I do. In this moment of goofy jogging the crows are with me:) I find myself evolving into a playfulness a sense of freedom, Charlie Chaplin shows up, so does Ellen De Generes. Here comes the release... the digital memory card was full at the exact moment that I put the handful of gravel to heart.

I went on to discover a ritual (probably lasting about 20 min.) of nourishing, gathering gravel and distributing to the areas of my self that yearned for observation. It was healing and none of it captured on camera, such is life :) Enjoy